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禅海一粟

I drown...
我淹沒...
For too long I felt the winter's breath
我只能感受到冬天的呼吸，
The rain keeps falling down into my soul
雨水不斷灌進我的靈魂，
Thorns cover my grave... they hurt within me
荊棘爬滿我的墳墓... 刺進我的身體，
I wonder how death shall ever set me free
疑惑死亡怎麼可能讓我解脫，
When I cannot close my eyes
當我連眼睛都閉不起來，
I wonder how death shall ever set me free
疑惑死亡怎麼可能讓我解脫，
When there's even in this darkness no place for us to be
當這片黑暗壟罩，我們甚至沒有多餘的立足之地，
Wish I could kill myself again
真希望我能再殺死自己一次，
The spectral lights would fade away
幽光會漸漸消失，
And I...
然後...
A thousand voices in my mind
千種哭喊在我心中，
A thousand empty faces starring at me
千張空虛的臉注視著我，
A thousand lies I can't forget
千個我忘不了的謊言，
And one single life I do regret
還有一個我懊悔的單調生命，
The only thing left of me... an aura cold and blue
唯一剩下的只是又冷又憂鬱的氣味，
As the banshees embrace me with a sigh
當女妖嘆了氣擁抱我，
I am gone...
我走了...
The autumn's song is guiding me
秋天的歌引領我，
With the sound of the weeping rain I fall asleep
隨著哭泣的雨聲中沉睡，
And the thorns, that cover my grave? They hurt no more
還有那些爬滿我墳墓的荊棘呢？ 它們再也傷不了我了。
All my life I searched for thee
在我的一生中不斷尋找你，
To make me feel complete
為了使我感到完整，
But only bitterness spoke to me
但卻只有苦痛回應我，
In a language I had to learn throughout the years
用盡一生學會的語言，
All my life I was wandering through the dark
我的一生只是不斷在黑暗中徘徊，
Without any spark of hope
連一絲的希望都不存在，
Never knew, where I belonged
我從不知道我屬於哪裡，
Weary of life and jaded
厭倦了生命，
It was just too late to turn around
但已無法回頭重來，
All my life I felt alone
我一生中只感受到寂寞，
No matter where I've gone
無論我去了哪裡，
There's never a place for someone else
都沒有一個能容納我的地方，
In the portrait of a lifeless soul
在空殼般的靈魂，
All my life I searched for death
我的一生中只是在尋找死亡，
To make me feel alive
為了讓我感覺到活著，
Now as he came for me
現在當它向我招手，
I've realized, that I was just too blind too see
我才意識到一直以來我只是太盲目而看不見它，
In the I search again for thee
再一次尋找你的過程中，
To erase this painfuly memory
為了抹去這痛苦的回憶，
These words of disconsolation
這些悲哀的字語，
For they shall be my legacy
將是我的遺言。